Dec 25, 2009

its beginning to feel like 3 am on christmas

That would be because....it actually is 3 AM on christmas day.  The most recent disovery I've made is that Torchlight is a pretty deent game, anyone who enjoys the Diablo/Action RPG type games will feel right at home.  I wouldn't go in w/your hopes TOO high but as far as single player goes its actually quite nice.  I downloaded it quickly after realizing that this Risen (pc game) dvd disk was blank. 

Its offiially christmas...well 3 hours into the actual day.  I'm thankfull we have that beautifully baby Jesus to watch over us now.  He certainly isn't a baby, or a person we an physially see for that matter.  He is right there behind me everytime I step out into this big wide and sometimes vicious world though. 

I've grown to be rather hesitant about Lynds and mine home loan.  I know were approved and I know we lose on the 29th, but I won't really realize it until we sign the papers.  I am SO beyond ready to sign the dotted line and start investing this money into our future, our home and our life.  I totally just ripped a rather loud fart (its 3 AM) I think my new pup Archelaus woke up , pwnd. 

You see how I stopped the semi-mushy srs part right there, pretty clever aye?  I really hope this christmas goes well.  I know my mother and family will enjoy the wii that I got them.  It didn't cost any out of pocket money b/c I just did some trading and things were good to go.  Truth be told i've made about 300 bucks in the past week.  Thats not even counting the extra 100 that I put down to get the earlier mentioned new pup.  I'll write a blog about that whole process a bit later. 

I'm thinking that Lynds and I def need a good camera here soon.  I figure if we're getting a new one we might as well get a rather nice one.   SLR cams are nice but not sure that any are quite affordable for our lifestyle at the moment.  I cant really think too straight b/c I am actually starting to get tired.   Hadn't wrote in a while...so figured I would. 

...agian so boring w/o the format or pics in post.  iSux , sry.

merry christmas

Dec 13, 2009

I come to you now defenses down. Defenseless now.

     I wish I could've seen growing up that when I was told to "be myself" that it really would work.  There will always be those who shut you out or push you down.  What matters at the end of the day was that you kept on doing what you feel is right and didn't bend.  I'm not saying that I was always right, god knows that it's completely the opposite.  In high school I felt like god was just sort of something that was there.  God was something that gave people the decency to stop people from asking me why I had coke bottle glasses.  God was something inside of people that would take me as I was..no questions asked.  This could be true, but really the part of the picture that I wasn't getting was that it wasn't God.  It was really morals and standards. 

     Tie all that into my present...I often wonder if it's God or my standards that keep me away from alcohol and drinking.  I have never been one to like that.  I did however, dip my toes in the waters of smoking pot as a teen.  I thought that was okay...but never was keen on drinking.  Of course now the smoking thing is a definite 100% NO, its not even in the question.  I am not against a glass or two of a nice whine or champagne, I have yet to try either of those...but may sooner or later.  I have no desire to get drunk but I do know that they help prevent kidney stones...which I don't ever care to try.   I KNOW that I hold the alchohol thing against others...and I shouldn't.  I don't even like to be around it, or have anything to do with it unless its in a (to my oh so precious standards) classy way. 

On past the alchohol and back to the being yourself though.  I really hope that when I have kids I can put this message through and really get it across.  If you really just keep it true to yourself then people will accept that and half the time you can really help people change.  Half the time a group is poking fun there's a GOOD chance that someone in the group doesn't feel that way ...they're just going with the flow.  I don't want to make a scene by busting out a bible and doing some obscure scene to pray over dinner in public.  I do however think that I should be praying over every meal I have.  It doesn't have to be some elitist prayer that clears the skies so that got himself can high five me for my awesome play of words on my thirty minute prayer in the middle of Applebees.  Just a short little "thank you for everything I have and will have " will suffice.

     Lynds has been doing a great job of keeping us praying before dinner and I really think it does help us.  It's always good practice to have reminders in our life.  We use sticky notes to remind us to do small errands throughout the day.  A simple prayer before a meal is a good reminder of what we should be thankfull of.  A bible/cross or anything that may remind you of what you believe in on your desk may help you remember whats right and wrong when your browsing the oh so enticing internet.  I'm no saint nor am I a preacher, just things that have helped me in life.

This post has been on and off for almost an hour and at this point waking up for church will certainly be a slight challenge.  Today Katie got married, twas a very well put together reception.  I could tell Lynds was getting semi emotional and most likely thinking about the fact that we will be doing the same thing in about 3 months.  Had a great time catching up w/Jamz0rz and playing wii for like...prolly 2-3 hours, lulz.  My nerves are on edge to hear from these underwriters.  If we get this loan approved and move into our house this month it will no doubt be one of the happiest moments of both our lives.  Its such an amazing house that I can really see us raising our kids in if that is where we are when kids come into play.  Schools going so-so, there are some things I'd like to change but its completely out of my grasp.  looking forward to seeing what Mr. Crocker has as a surprise tomorrow.   It's almost 3 I need teh sleepz0rz.

if anyones reading this sorry for the lack of photos along the post...no time tonight

Dec 1, 2009

A constant work in progress



Would be a pretty good summary of life and an effective way to view it.  I know that I've had my fair share of speed bumps and there are many more to come.  I do hope that I'm making the right decisions now so more than ever.  It's not just myself that I am responsible for, I feel that I am making decisions that will effect Lyndsey as well.  I pushed to back away from the townhouse we were pursuing, and instead go for an actual home.  I know that Lynds was heels over head in love w/the townhouse...but if we get stuck somewhere for more than 5 years and kids come into play that may not be the best place.  I feel 100% certain that this house is an actual home that we can grow old in if that's the way the cookie crumbles.


     This is a dummy pic, its similiar but just flip it around so the door is on the right band side of the garage.  I am actually VERY excited that this place has a 2 car garage.  I really miss doing music, I'd trade every 360 I have to be able to get up on stage and do music again.  It's always nice to have a crowd that enjoys your music, but I 100% enjoyed just gettting up there and performing with the guys.  Its somewhat funny b/c I use to be known as the shy person growing up, I thought on stage I'd clam up and let my nerves get the best of me.  It was actually the opposite, I wish I would've been more social with the crowd but overall I'm not let down with my part in the band.  I am not so sure that I have time to do it in school, and I know that Lynds def doesn't think I should.  However, if a really promising opportunity came up I don't know that it'd be all that easy to pass it up.  I start to sit down and run through stories in my mind, which later turn to ideas for songs...but never seem to write them down.

    Lastly, school is going rather well in my opinion, I'm super stoked to actually start my networking classes.  I started to work on a layout for twitter and consider using it.  If you clicked on the link you can clearly see the oh so beautiful avatar that is...AyyoitsBrandon.  I also went into my template for blogger and figured out how the crap to make a "read more" link.  It used to be easy in the LJ/DJ days...technology fails this time.  It's almost midnight...so I need to get some rest.